Devika's

........ I shy away, tryi ng to hide my face because I can't look at your eyes again. Somehow, your fingers run through my hand like a miracle. I turn myself towards you. You smile. My lips feebly curl into a smile as I turn red. You hold my hand and bring it near your face. As it touches your chin, I feel the heat on your skin. You are still smiling that smile, but your eyes are fiery. I separate my hand from yours and caress your face. You have such beautiful eyes, and nose. My heart beat amplifies with every minute that passes by, and I can see yours does too. I take your hand; my eyes locked with yours and slowly leap towards your side. The emotion building up inside, swarms across, from you to me, and from me to this hazel dream. I hesitate. You pull yourself back from this trance. I quietly follow.  … The night gets darker. The bus we are on leaves a track of its being as it speeds up, filling the tranquility with the lazy sound of an old engine, struggling not...

September 9, 2014 2:30 AM As I hurried back to the ward with a packet of Glucose, I was surprised to see bhauju being hastened into the other room. I fretted at the dire state she was in. I tried to call one of the nurses who were holding her, to ask of the situation, but they quickly entered the room, leaving me unhinged. I headed back to the room where she was kept earlier. Some of the women inside gave me hints on why and where my bhauju was taken. I sighed. She was about to deliver! I leaped towards the delivery room and paused at its door. I peeped into it and saw what looked like a corridor. There were rooms on either sides of it. I walked past the first room on my left, and before I could take another step, I heard someone coming towards me. I swiftly returned back to the door, closed it after me and stood at the side. A nurse came out; and walked past me without saying anything. I kept waiting outside. My restlessness grew with every minute that went by. I marched f...

Environment Matters! Note: The word ‘environment’ here means the surrounding one lives in, and not the environment, environment. ;)  “Our attitude towards others determines their attitude towards us” -           Earl Nightingale Most of us already know how important the environment is for a seed to germinate and grow into a healthy plant. It is not just the water that helps it in the process, but it is the sunlight, the climate, the soil quality, the nutrients. It is the environment as a whole that is responsible for the sapling’s survival and growth. The same rule applies to a person’s development and performance, which we all have the knowledge of. Unfortunately, when it comes to really implementing this knowledge, we tend to surpass this truth with our presumptions and judgmental attitude. One of my high school best friends married some time ago. She was very happy for this marriage because the going-to-...

You find your lost love, or so you think, after years. You hear that your childhood best friend, with whom you lost contacts for ages, married recently. The person you have known to be benign for so long turns out to be just the opposite. You do not win the heart of this one person you tried to, all those time. You thought you were better, but apparently you were just as ordinary as so many people around you. Well, life brings us many surprises; some good, some not so good. And there are some which belong to neither. Nevertheless, surprises excite us, hue our everyday. We are thrilled with every little surprise that comes our way as they make us ponder upon our own flaws and fortitude. Surprises delight us. Surprises leave us with a crippling affliction. Surprises tend to influence us, our way of life, in one way or the other. ;)

 Today was the day I had waited for so long. Did this really happen? I am in constant denial. Today seemed like an improbable truth, like it was the present of the past, of mine and of yours. I was walking and talking as if I was walking and talking years ago. This today felt no present, but a glimpse of my ingrained memories of the life-time I spent under my unceasingly intense fidelity to you. It felt like everything that I had never felt and can never feel again. You wish for something incredible to happen and it really happens. Life would then be a beautiful constellation of happy endings. Sadly, this possibility of anything and everything can only prevail in a fairy tale where magic exists and where your wishes come true. In real life, there is no magic; there are (and can be) only co-incidences, that is too, if you are a believer like me. And today seemed like one of those it-can-never-happen fantasized magical tale that I lived, yet refused to believe in what came ab...

“ An intention fueled by passion can be impossible to stop. Over time it gains momentum until it turns into an impetus for change. This is how a notion transforms into motivation and how a child's vow becomes reality. ” I finished watching Season three’s final two episodes of the series ‘Revenge’ yesterday; and unlike most of the drama, I believe it ended giving its audiences a whiff of contentment. The antagonist, Emily Thorne‘s first revenge was fulfilled. With this, I, as a keen audience (and Emily’s staunch supporter) , experienced victory as if I had just won the toughest battle of my own. I’ve never liked watching TV dramas before and I still hate it. But the story of ‘Revenge’ touched me like none other did and the story felt like my own. “When I was a little my understanding of revenge was as simple as the Sunday school proverbs it hid behind. Neat little morality slogans, like 'Do unto others' and 'Two wrongs don't make a right.' But two...

म आफुलाई फिल्म-लवर भन्न मनपराउने व्यक्ति ,   तर झन्डै ९ - १० बर्षको अन्तरालपछि आज पहिलो पटक नेपाली फिल्म हेर्न गइयो │   “ कबड्डी ” ले मन जित्यो │   फिल्म हेर्नु अगाडिसम्म पनि कस्तो नै होला र जस्तो  लागेको  थियो │   तर बास्तवमै नेपाली चलचित्रहरु राम्रो बन्न थालेका रहेछन् , खुशी लाग्यो │ फिल्मबारे धेरै काम गरिसक्नुभाका हाम्रा गोबिन्‍द सिवाकोटी दाईले एक दिन मलाई भान्नुभाकोथ्यो – “ कथाबस्तु जे जस्तो भएपनि एउटा चलचित्रले दर्शकहरुलाई चलचित्र अवधिभर मनोरन्जन दिनसक्नेसम्मको हुनु नै ठूलो कुरा हो” │ हुन पनि हो पहिलो कुरा त मान्छेहरुलाई फिल्म हलसम्म तान्न सक्नुपर्यो नी नेपाली चलचित्रहरुले │   त्यसपछि कुरा आउंछ बिषयबस्तुको │   त्येही पुरानै शैलीले हिरो र गुण्डाको फाइटकै भरमा दर्शक तान्ने बिचार छाडिदिए उत्तम होला चलचित्रकर्मीहरुले │   फिल्ममा नयाँपन भए त हल खचाखच नै हुने रैछ नी ! हिजोआज नेपाली फिल्महरु हेरेर आएपछि साथीहरुले पनि तिनीहरु बारे सकारात्मक कुरा गरेको सुन्दैआएको छु │ आशा छ नेपाली चलचित्र उद्योग अझै यसरीनै फस्टाउँदै जानेछ │   म त ...

‘ कर्णाली ब्लुज ’ बाट प्रेरित भएर   सुरेश   प्राञ्जली को ‘ तुइन ’ पढ्न सुरु गरें │  सुरुवातमै रुवायो बाइ ! पश्चिमी नेपालको कथा सुन्न पढ्न एकदम रुची राख्छु म │  शायद अहिलेसम्म पश्चिम नेपाल देख्न नपाएको कारणले पनि हो की जस्तो लाग्छ │ ‘ कर्णाली ब्लुज ’ जति दुई पटकसम्म भ्याको थिएँ │  हुन त ममीको लागि किनिदिएको किताब हो , सुरुमा खोल हेर्दा के नै राम्रो होला र जस्तो लागेको थियो │  घरमा ल्याको तीन दिनसम्म त हेर्दा पनि हेरिन │  तर आज बिहान के झोक चल्यो कुन्नि , चिया पिउँदा पिउंदै ‘ तुइन ’ पल्टाएँ │  कथाको पहिलो भाग सक्दा सक्दै मेरो मन किताबमा बस्यो │  अफिस निस्कनुअघि भाग ३ सम्म सकेर मात्र निस्किएं │  भोलि शनिबार दिनभरी बसेर   ‘तुइन ’ सक्ने धोको छ │:D

After a few years of I-want-to-blog feelings, I finally gathered up the courage to implement that notion today, 29th April 2014. Right now, I am going through as many tips as one can find in Google. The emotional ups and downs that I can sense at the moment is that of my first elephant ride! (Err...) I'm scared. I'm excited. I can do it !  (Gulp)