"Today, I found you"

 Today was the day I had waited for so long. Did this really happen? I am in constant denial. Today seemed like an improbable truth, like it was the present of the past, of mine and of yours. I was walking and talking as if I was walking and talking years ago. This today felt no present, but a glimpse of my ingrained memories of the life-time I spent under my unceasingly intense fidelity to you. It felt like everything that I had never felt and can never feel again.

You wish for something incredible to happen and it really happens. Life would then be a beautiful constellation of happy endings. Sadly, this possibility of anything and everything can only prevail in a fairy tale where magic exists and where your wishes come true. In real life, there is no magic; there are (and can be) only co-incidences, that is too, if you are a believer like me. And today seemed like one of those it-can-never-happen fantasized magical tale that I lived, yet refused to believe in what came about.

Over years, my hope of ‘us’ intensified but persistently failed to transpire. Nevertheless, my heart was resistant to any kind of enticements; for it always believed creating a world based up on a lie is not a selfless act of endearment, but a gesture of mere desperation. Instead, I solemnly wished everyday for my feelings be reciprocated with the truest of  your heart.
 Longing to see you for all this time was the dream I thought, would never come true, for I always knew, you and I are beyond the bounds of possibility.  And today when that impossible dream breathed life, the sudden surge of emotions numbed me. I could only gaze at this gift of life incredulity and feel blessed.

There you were, as bright as ever and there I was, entirely going astray by your overwhelming presence. An infinite period of torturous waiting had finally come to an end. Oh! A sheer joy!

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